I may be pervy, but this picture is in no way meant to provoke perverseness. So shove it.

So..last night I had a panic attack...
I got back from buying Underworld: Evolution but my mom suddenly calls me over and shows me a letter from school saying I was a truant and that my credits were in danger and all that bad stuff. I was so worried this was going to affect my UCLA status...I could hardly sleep. And when I did sleep, I woke up again late at night and just drew. This.
I drew two awesome characters that I love...and I have named them Zero (the guy) and Adel (the girl). It kinda helped relieve stress. And kinda not. The whole time I was drawing it I was thinking, "omgomgomgomgomg".
But I also discovered 2 very cool new people and they cheered me up. Well, indirectly. I was reading their livejournals and man, they're just so hilarious. I love Kingdom Hearts (I and II) just because so many jokes can be made about it. And I found new treasure today on DA concerning KHII..ahhh, they made me laugh. lol~ behold, the genius of it all!
I have a love/hate relationship with mankind, XDD

Oh yeah..the truancy thing was cleared up this morning XD *WHEW*

I have to change rooms again soon....I'm moving into the smallest room, my parents back into the master bedroom, and my brother in my old room. I don't need a big room anymore because I won't be home much...but...*looks around the room at all her stuff* I don't want to depart with all my belongings!!! And I don't know where to put all my stuff in that small room...lol. but..ugh..just thinking about having to move all this furniture again makes me want to go hide under my bed. Not that there's any room for me there anyway. I think 70% of the household items are all mine *laughs*
I have issues.

Okay..well Snitter changed her commission and I promised her a sketch waiting in her inbox by tomorrow morning..so off I go~ weeeee!
I need to kick my ass on these commissions. But GAHH...some of them are boring...must..force..myself.......guuuuuuuhh *facepalms*

Ergo Proxy soundtrack is delicious. I wish I had the full version of the OP song because LOOOOOOVE!!

I'm gonna try and see if I can see the Omen toniiiight. Probably not, though, because my brother has school tomorrow.

And WOW, I need sleep.

Uhhmm..still doodling a whole bunch but nothing coming out right...so I worked on commissions all morning.....*not fun* Well, some are. But most are not. But I think I can get through alot of them today.

lol, dude, I fail at making sunny-side-up eggs. It's slaughter, I tell you.
And this morning..I walk down to the kitchen and GUAH! The sink is CRAWLING with ants. OMG..lol..i was so grossed out. I killed them all but now I have to CLEAN IT UP..which is the grosses part of this ant-massacring process. UGH. I hate ants. They're so hard to kill. For every ant I killed yesterday, it seemed like 50 more appeared today. BASTARDS!!! *stomps around in a rage*
I also went to the post office to ship off some buttons...gay. I was there at 7:20. They didn't open till 8. So I stood there for 5 minutes pondering whether I hsould wait or just go back later. I went back later, lol.

Nooo..I have to clean up the dead ants.....ick.
Well, I'm gonna get some sleep before I have to go pick up my brother. Then I'll be working on commissions all day since I can't seem to be able to draw anything else. Pooey.

Wow..today was tiring. I slept at around 3, and had to wake up at 6 to make my brother breakfast and drop him off at school. I planned on taking a nap to make up for my lack of sleep..but somehow, I never got the chance to. O_O
So I'm really tired. I gotta wake up tomorrow early as well. Same process. My parents are away at my uncle's house for great grandma's funeral.

Ugggh..*is dizzy*

So I'm not liking what I draw these days. It's not good enough for me. It's so frustrating. Painting is not working out very well on photoshop....
I guess I'm not over my art block. And today's scribble? don't even ask. I just drew whatever I felt like. Those 2 characters are like polar opposites, lol.

And I did a whole mess of NOTHING today as well. Well, alot of cooking and cleaning, if that counts as anything. I also watched 16 episodes of Matantei Loki Ragnarok.....wow..one of the lamest anime series I've ever watched, but I keep watching it anyway, lol. Because Loki is adorable...so cute i want to hug and cuddle him. OH NO! I do NOT, repeat, NOT have a shouta-fetish!! That's just wrong! >.<

Okay...I'm really off to sleep. I'm so upset my emo Cloud looks like a tard. *sigh* I wish I could draw.

I think i'm hyper. I think. lol.
Today church was boring...as usual. Details need not be discussed. Julie wasn't here today either *sniffles* And everyone ate my sunflower seeds...*shakes angry fist*
I'm really worried about my dog. These days, he isn't eating his food. And he won't drink out of his bowl either. We bought him a new brand of dog food because he suddenly stopped eating the other one. We even bought him SAUCE for his food. He still won't eat! I don't know what's wrong with him...He wants to eat everything but his own food. Damn dog *kicks it* And usually if you hand feed his food he'll eat it..but now he doesn't even do that. *worried*

So I'm really lookin forward to AX. I don't think I'm going to spend much money. But I'm going to see alot of the DA people there! *uberly excited* I'm kinda nervous about it because one, I don't talk with them much online other than the usual drooling and molesting of their art with my eyes..and two, I'll be meeting new people, which I'm always nervous about. But, ah, we won't think too much on it, XD Go with the flow, I say.

Whoa, so anime rant: Black Lagoon kicks major ass! Toughest chick I've seen in anime for a long time. And her tattoo rocks, XD And Ergo Proxy...sexyness. Vincent is so cute. It's like half the time he doesn't realize what he's doing and when he does, he's always aplogizing for everything even though he's a KICKASS PROXY! XD He was all emo in the past couple episodes about him being a proxy and how he's a monster and such..and I was like, "Awe, you porr thing! I love you as a monster so stop being emo. Before i shoot you." And POOR IGGY! I loved that cyborg alot. But I won't spoil it for anybody who hasn't seen the part yet.

Dude, I need to watch something with sexy armor while I'm on my armor-fest. Otherwise, I'll end up watching Appleseed and Final Fantasy unti l have the movies memorized. And that's not hip.

And oooooooooooomg. I really want my tattoo. *froths at mouth* Though I should really stop announcing that if I want to keep it in the hush-low about it with my beastly dad. There's only one person that reads this blog I'm worried about. I want to shoot his snobby little ass, but I can't. *shudders in disgust* what a jerkface. I hate my relatives. But yeah..I'm having ALOT of trouble designing a super cool skull..lol. *whines* tattoooooooooooooo

And I saw motorcycles today on the freeway~ I literally squeal with glee when I see them. *plasters self onto window as she watches the motorcycles drive by* THEY'RE SO COOL. Not the harleys, though. I'm talking about the Suzuki's. And the helmets. GOODNESS~ and it's super awesome when like a whole group of them drives by. XD

Okay, I'm done. I'm gonna go and eat now. I bought food at VONS today...$70. *weeps* It's so depressing..going to the market. I think I'll raise my own crops and cows now.

Last night, after paying for my summer dorming (what a depressing event), I watched Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within. When I first watched that movie, I remember going wtf. But now..it's not so wtf. Now, it's more like....*DROOOOL* I LOVE the armor. i don't know...after my Briareos obsession, I've been more and more attracted to armor! *points to picture of blue-eyed armor* That is my definition of sexy. lol, that aside, and the horrible voice acting of the female (Aki), I kinda like that movie. It entertains me. And it has uber sexy armor.
Halo has sexy armor. Appleseed has uber sexy armor. Starcraft has sexy armor. I need more armor!!!! I'm so not into mechas...but that is now of the past, now, XDD Now if only I can draw armor. That'd be spifftastic. Maybe I'll tackle that some time after I get a bit of my commissions finished.

I would've stayed up all night finishing coloring my urban pirate Tom....but I got bored. or rather, things were not turning out as nice as I would've liked, so I stopped for the day, lol. So, I shall resume today. Hopefully, things will go more smoothly today.

I'm STILL listening to final fantasy soundtracks.....Spirits Within makes me uberly sad...wow. lol. *changes music* ASIAN KUNG FU GENERATION!!!!! Gah, I LOVE their guitar. I wish I was cool enough to play guitar as sexy as they do.

Whoa, so I really need to get to studying my japanese alphabet. I only have 3 weeks left till it all starts! *excited*
I still haven't bought my skateboard yet *pouts* I realllllly want one! Korea has these REALLY cool skateboards that only have 2 wheels and is split in the middle with an axis...it's tiiiiiiiiiiiight. I want that more than the standard skateboard, but I can't, so the standard board will have to do.

Browsing through DA makes me happy. It's like treasure hunting. For all you rabid roxas/axel fans....this is a MUST: here. Even thinking about this picture cracks me up. Never fails to make me laugh. The world is full of such great people, XDD So whoa, I was chatting with Ardi (she rocks!) and she pointed out to me that if you take out the "x" in Roxas, it's SORA! I think that applies to all the Organization XIII members..but I haven't figured them all out yet *is too stupid*

Okay~ gotta get goin...I think this pirate picture is going to take me a long time. And I need some medicine. I hate this frickin' sickness.

So, finally, after 2 long hours of scribbling/doodling, I am ready to color this piece of a beast. I really like it! I just hope I don't kill it with my coloring. I'm trying to integrate the whole anime/manga style with the painting style I did for my sniper picture. Hopefully it'll work out okay because I spent a long time drawing this, lol.
Guns are SO hard to draw! And shotguns are the hardest thus far. Pistols are okay..and sniper rifles are alright..but deng..the shotguns are monstrous..lol.

Uggh..I'm sick. I caught it from my mom. My whole family did. I don't mind being sick..it's just when you breathe, you breathe out hot air and it BOTHERS me alot.

I want to watch a good movie. But I stare at my collection of dvd's and there isn't anything that catches my eye. No anime seems appealing either....bleh. I guess I'll just stick to music and coloring my new piece.

I also want to design my tattoo already. I got half of it designed, but that was the easy half. It was just text, after all. I'm thinking of adding some greek to it..or latin..just because I'm cool like that, XDD I just need to design the skull. But it's hard...because I want it to be super cool and still look like my testdrive logo. So yeah..it'll be a while before I get that up.
Julie also asked me to design her a tattoo....hers should be easy, if not complex. I'll do that tomorrow.

Been listening to final fantasy soundtracks alllll day...lol..well, I have 6+ GB of it, so yeah...plenty of music for the day. I'm gonna go color the picture now. XD

If you can believe it, I've never painted on phtoshop before. It was always stay-within-the-lines nonsense....drawing, inking, and THEN coloring. And even then, the coloring would be...hmm..not painting, lol. So this picture is my very first digital painting. It's SO MUCH FUN...i don't know why I haven't tried it before!!! XDD I couldn't sleep last night, so I got on my computer and browsed around DA...gods I love that site. It provides so much inspiration and encouragement...but yeah. It totally inspired me to try digital painting and now I"M LOVIN IT. It's hard, I have to admit, lol. But I'm so not bored with this! It's very fun. I'll post the finished piece on DA, as usual, in about 4-6 hours...depending on how fast I work. First time digital painting for me so I don't know how long I'm going to take. So far, this is 2 hours' worth of work. XD *is happy*

For old times' sake. I dressed Tom up as a pirate..because pirates kick ass and my piratey time with Alyssa was one of the best moments of my life, XD So this is, in short, for Alyssa, XDD We're SO COOL! XD

I downloaded the FFXII soundtrakc..dunno why...haven't even played that game, lol. But I'm liking the music so far. It's like..orchestrated! The usual gameplay ost's for the Final Fantasy series are electronic and have separate orchestrated ost's. But this one isn't! *dances*
I saw clips from the ffxiii game....CRAZY~ the fighting sequences rocks my face off. makes me want to buy ps3. but only for a second. Honestly, $600 is wayyyy to much for a game console, I think.

My right hand is kind of disabled right now, lol. And my wrist turned red. I thought it was from pressing down on it too much while drawing yesterday..but I woke up todya and it was still red. It's still red. It doesn't hurt, though..so...hmm. very odd.

I all of a sudden got really sleepy. I get sleepy after showers...and when my stomach is full....so..I just got out of the shower and finished eating...I guess I know why I'm sleepy, lol.
But I accomplished absolutely nothing today. Well, except for buying Dooli a new food/water bowl and some chew toys. But beyond that..nothing. I don't feel all too bad about it though, because I did heck of alot yesterday, lol. I WANT TO DRAW MOREEEE!! But I don't know what of. yeesh, as if it wasn't hard enough for me before...now it's even HARDER to think of what to draw when I want to. It used to take me a long time before...now it's nearly impossible. That picture I drew for the tarot card (here)..man..I started that thing over 5 bajillion times. But once I got the basic idea down, it flowed easily from there. So yeah..I MUST DRAW! But I don't know what >.< So until I think of something...I'll draw random pictures of Tom and Kaitou - having SEXXXX!!!! jk. XD had to add that in there to make Xan flinch...she hates mansex, lmao.
Maybe I'll draw Briareos. But my inferior skills will make him less hot. So maybe not. *depressed sigh*

Excuse me as I rack my brain for some ideas.

sinking down to the ultimate low. ugh. gad.

but I watched Appleseed again, so that made me happy. Briareos is such a hottie. I'd grope and molest him but he's all metal so I don't think it'd be as fun as it should be, XDD
And I baked cake with my brother. And played Halo with him. We tried pirating Halo...but it didn't work out too well, so heck, we just went out and bought another copy, XDD and DUDE! I suck hardcore...I haven't played for like, 2 (?) years so I'm out of touch, but it's still SO MUCH FUN. Master Chief is a big hottie too.
We also bought bikes. The last time i rode a bike was freakin' over 8 years ago, lol. It took me a while getting used to it. And my butt hurts like a beast. And my brother, who originally didn't know how to ride a bike, learned how to do it in less than an hour. Kudos.
We also went to buy skateboards at Pharmacy, but we were 15 minutes too late (the store closed). So next time. Yeah, we don't know how to skateboard, but we're going to teach ourselves. Hey, we got all summer.
I also got down the basics of knitting...I'm getting bored with the scarf I'm working on right now so I'm learning new knitting patterns, woot.
Uhmm..what else...oh yeah, I've been playing with my dog alot too.
And I need to start studying the Japanese alphabet.
I also bought a bunch of new books.
This is why I haven't been online these days. This is why I can't seem to draw these days. Ah, well, it doesn't bother me. Much. Okay, it does alot, but I'm pretending it doesn't.

I want more Briareos. *goes to read appleseed manga* Deunan is such a whiny whore in the manga. I don't like her. But Briareos....ah! *love*love*

Oh, and Philip gave me graduation moneyyyyy!!!!! *loves him* thanks, Phil. He rocks, X3 He's one of the few relatives I enjoy.
Speaking of relatives...my great grandma is dying...she's like, 96 or something..iono..lost count. Who cares. I mean..Oh no, she must live forever because we'll be all sad when she dies. not. I'm just being cold-hearted and indifferent (a total bitch, in short) because even though she's my great grandmother, she holds no importance to me. Sure, I'll respect her as an elder and whatnot, but she really is a stranger to me so I could care less. I guess I'm kind of bitter because ever since she's been hospitalized, my house has been bombarded with phonecalls. You know how I hate the phone. I'd shoot it if I had a gun. Along with some people. But that's why I don't own a gun.

Uhmmm..this was meant to be a short entry, but it turned out to be not so short. hah.


Briareos. Yum.
And dude, I think i have a crush on Ian McKellen. I say he's totally hot. X-Men 3 was alright. It kinda shocked me, lol. Lots of surprises. And Jean..man...can I shoot her now? Anyway..yeah. Wolverine rocked, as usual. Poor guy....DUDE...there was this one scene where his f'n clothes were being torn off and I was like AH! OMG! *massive drooling* of course, nothing was revealed beyond his upper body *pouts* And jean reakin' raped him in that movie. I was like *jawdrop* little kids are watching this movie! But yeah..it was good to the point of entertainment. Story wasn't so bad either. Stay for the end of the credits, dudes. It's worth it, I think..though it makes you wonder if they should continue making Xmen or just stop. Sometimes enough is enough, y'know?

Okay, I'm really done. Sorry for no picture. We don't need an explanation for that now, do we?

And oh yeah..superman can SUCK MY COCK. What a prat.